The Pressures of Blogging

Hi guys,

Today's post is a slightly different one for me, but I suppose it's a very honest one, and one of the many reasons that I stopped blogging for so long.

I find blogging to be quite a lot of pressure - regardless of the fact that no one really cares what I have to say.

I started a blog because I loved to read them, and it was as simple as that! But the blogs I read were so polished, impressive, dedicated, incredible content, always something new... and frankly, it seems like they have a never ending bank account.

I guess when I started blogging I did it expecting to be like those people. But I'm not those people. They've been doing this for years and have a lot of experience and practice. I've practically been here for five minutes, so who cares if people don't follow me religiously? Or if I can't post everyday? Or if I take awful photo's and write about things that you probably didn't need to know?

I think I put a lot of pressure on myself in every day situations, and I try to be too good at things sometimes. It becomes so much pressure that I stop enjoying it.

I started blogging because I loved reading blogs, and because I felt like I had a lot to say. Not because I wanted hundreds of thousands of people to read.

I know that I can't compete with all the millions of bloggers out there that have been doing it for years and years, and I think today I needed to remind myself of that.

I had a bad day today. I really wanted to post a Missguided haul because I've recently bought a few different bits and pieces from them, but I didn't want to ask anyone to take the photo's of me - because it was embarrassing.

I'm also the least photogenic person in the world so I have no idea how I'll ever gather the courage to actually post a photo of my face to demonstrate the makeup on an actual person. I also hate the thought of a concentrated photo on my figure to show an outfit.

It's definitely going to be a bit of a challenge to overcome these things, but I really want to because I do really love blogging. I just lack the confidence in myself that is required, and I need to stop competing with people who don't even know who I am, don't really care, but would probably be nothing but encouraging and supporting to people starting out because they remember what it was like.

I would be interested to hear if anyone has anything to say on this topic because it is one that interests me greatly - for example, my boyfriend doesn't even know I have a blog because what if he thinks it's weird? Even though I know he won't really bat an eyelid at it.

So, maybe you'll see a Missguided haul sometime soon, but the clothes will probably be on coat hangers off my bedroom door, instead of on me in some fantastic location shot with a million pound camera.

I want to clarify, this post isn't at all a negative approach to full time bloggers, or people who are better than me, I'm merely saying I'm not there yet. And if I never get there, that'll be okay to. Because I'm enjoying writing my thoughts and anyone who reads my blog will do it because they like my content, not because they're waiting for me to get a more expensive camera and a much nicer face.

Until next time,

Lauren x